This is the first single for my upcoming album. It was actually written sometime last year in 2019 when I was trying to gain some of my confidence back in writing songs. It really came together very quickly and I’m happy with the way it turned out. I’m working on some more songs similar to it for my next full-length release, but I thought people would appreciate some new material in the meantime.
I normally hate single releases, but it seemed appropriate to provide something new to fans. The video was filmed very late at night and it was extremely cold out there with only that thin jacket on. In some shots you can even see my breath as I’m singing. Lyrically it’s very personal (like most of my songs) and to me it reflects some of the difficulties I went through at the end of 2018 and early 2019. The guitar was actually borrowed from my friend Bryan and it sounded perfect for what I needed to express.
It’s kinda funny to me that a lot of people have said the video is very aesthetically 90’s, but I honestly was not shooting for that. It just ended up happening. It was actually intended to be a much more crisp and quick kind of video and slowly turned into the more atmospheric grainy end product. I’m still very happy with how it turned out.
This whole video came about because I read A LOT, but there are certain books I’m not sure I feel like dedicating a video to. It honestly may have just been an excuse to talk about TekWar. I enjoy doing these more casual videos as it feels like much more of an actual conversation with everyone watching.
This was an idea that came out of nowhere. Wandering through a thrift store we found this animatronic and decided to make it into something more festive. He still resides in our house, now with a different hat.
These Goth Thrifting videos are a great opportunity for me to get out of the house and go places I haven’t been. I’ve been pretty surprised by some of the things I’ve found. I hope everyone is enjoying this series.
Dr.Sanders and Bryan continue their gaze into Peter Murphy’s indigo eyes by covering his albums from the mid 90’s to the early 2010’s. They will remain Unshattered in their opinions that will never turn to Dust.
On this deathrock-filled episode of GothCast, Dr.Sanders and Just Bryan take a look into the Rozz Williams and Eva O project called Shadow Project. It encompassed a large amount of genres, but do their albums still hold up today?
7:02 Shadow Project [Debut Album Released in 1991]
23:12 Random Interesting Goth Stuff [AKA RIGS]
40:17 Dreams for the Dying 
55:07 In Tuned Out  & And Then There Was Death 
1:12:18 From the Heart 
Mak and I took a trip down to Seattle for the Seattle Gothic Picnic. It was a pretty warm that day. I think you can see my makeup slowly melting off my face at parts. Lakeview Cemetery is extremely beautiful. You only get to see a brief moment of it in the video as I’m randomly mumbling in the microphone, but it’s actually huge. I think this video turned out a little chaotic. I cut the footage waaayyy down to make it slightly more coherent. These types of videos are fun to make, but often times are time consuming to edit. There’s a massive amount of footage that needs to be edited into a coherent video.